Feels like I haven’t posted in forever. I’ve had a couple paradigm shifting realizations that have left me reeling. My new therapist and I have been discussing my upbringing in different lights and she was talking to me about the sociopathic levels of abuse.
I don’t know why that word makes some of the abuse feel more real to me. Exploring the depth of the manipulation and how that affects my mental status, thinking and emotional world can be exhausting so I had to live inside me for a while and couldn’t post.